I figured it out, everytime I
might like a guy, my brain switches over to denial-mode, like, I can't let myself like someone, it's really annoying. I'm so good at being in denial, that I come to believe I don't like the guy, and it sorta eventually goes away. I think why that happens is, when I was lil, and sometimes even now, my mom would say that she was glad I wasn't "boy-crazy", and didn't always have a new crush every week, and wasn't obsessed with some movie star guy. So I think subconsciously or something, I began to think that it would make her disappointed in me if I ever had a crush or boyfriend. I think that's also why, if I ever got a boyfriend, I wouldn't tell her for a while, until it became absolutely necessary to tell her.
Cayla thinks it's the opposite with her, she feels sorta subconsciously that her mom is disappointed in her 'cus she doesn't have lotsa guys wanting to go out with her and she doesn't have a cute boyfriend all the time.
Mom's should be more careful of these things.
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