It was so gross!

I had my *ugly* mole removed today, it was sooo gross. The derm. thought it might be cancerous, and my family has a history of skin cancer, including melanoma, so I had to get it removed. It felt like the doctor guy was pulling strings of tissue or something out of my back (he was stiching me up). And when he cut my skin, I could feel the scissors, or whatever he used, tug on my skin, like the surface tension it caused, I could hear the scissors "snip" too. Soooooo GROSS! Now it's not that bad, but it stings a bit. I want a new homecoming dress, I don't want everyone to see it tomorrow night; I have a black halter dress for the "hanging out party" at my house for homecoming.
The derm said it would leave a REALLY wide scar that would like kind of like a stretch mark, and it would be more noticeable than my *ugly* mole. More noticeable than my mole?! I hate moles! Their name is even gross! They're so disgusting, like people who have them on their face (Ex: Stacie Oricco). I can't buy one of her CDs even if I wanted to 'cus I can't stand to look at her mole on her face.
I'm so materialistic:(, that's bad, I really need to try not to be, but how?