I need You

Derek moves in on Tuesday or Wednesday. Warren came over today and moved all the furniture out of the used-to-be-office-but-now-derek's-room. I went to Ben's tonight for the superbowl, went home early (at 9:00pm). I ask Mrs. Travers if she had any advice for living with a boy so she pulled mr Travers in the conversation and asked him. Mr Travers made me paranoid that I can't trust Derek, or atleast, it's going to be really weird. I don't know if I'm comfortable with a boy living my house. It's scary.
And my dad, who never spends time with me, is now looking up Father/Son retreats and seminars to go to with Derek. My mom is making a really big deal about it too, which it is, but I feel like I'm losing my parents. I know they still love me just as much, but I they're my parents. I feel like I'm losing them to Derek, a kid they're not even related to. I don't want to tell them that though; I'll feel feel foolish, stupid, and selfish (which I am: selfish).
Nothing's ever going to be the same. I'll never be able to run around naked, or atleast, in my cute vicotria's secret panties and neon bras:-(.
At first I thought I was cool with it, but now that it's happening, I don't knwo if I want it to. I liked my life, it had challenges, but it wasn't too hard, nothing drastic. I don't want to have to share my already precious parents! And now I'll never see my dad, I mean, I barely hang out with him as it is, but now I'll barely hang out with him AND he'll make time for fun outings with Derek. When I ask my dad to on the motorcycle with him he justs says "maybe later" and an hour later goes on the motorcycle with his guy friends and says "it's just me and the guys, sorry" (if he even gives an excuse, most of the time he quietly says he's going out and leaves).
I'm going to go to bed now. Oh my, I've gotten so worked up writing this that I'm crying.

I said the words I knew you knew Oh God, oh God I needed you God all this time I needed you, I needed you
-Relient K