Where Are the Words?

He has a way of somehow being polite, but yet insulting my faith, my God, my church, and my friends -all at the same time. My temper rises as he types it. The diction would seem innocent if not for his background. It's in a sardonic, or sarcastic tone, almost mocking.
He claims he knows vital information that "could rattle" my "faith in the leaders of the christian religion."


Does he think I'm that naive? That I wouldn't know there are imposters? Does he not I think I know that a lot of church "leaders" are corrupt? That I don't know that even though Christianity is supposedly the biggest religion, that not even 1/3 of those people practice it (I'm not talking about going to church, singing the songs, and then doing some community service). I'm talking about being willing to die for it, to be in love with their Savior, to be constantly growing closer to Him.

I realize that I pretty much despise what the church has become todaybut I can;t abandon it because I don;t like what it is. Think about what it's supposed to be.

Jesus never abandoned me and never will, why would I abandon what is supposed to be Him to this world? I hate it when people give up on the church. Sure, it seems futile at times, but when you really get down to it, there are people out there who are real, who are living it out, who stand up for it, who expect others to, who aren't perfect, who strive to be who God is making them into.
Not many, but there are.

Don't get me wrong, the individuals who I am adressing, I'm one of them at times. I don't always act "the perfect Christian." I wish I did. But I don't. Therefore, I can't judge. How come I end up judging?