Why Is It So?

I messed up my audition so bad.
For the audience (the other auditionees) it must have been repulsive.

5 Minutes B4 Audition:
Find out Ms. G had back tracks for us to practice with for preparation at home.
Find out song goes sing, speak, sing.
Though it was speak, sing.
Learn 1st sing part very quickly.

Singing Audition:
Sing the wrong verse from the beginning.
Lose my place.
Start over.
Major wobble in voice.
Sing too quiet to hear.
"THANK YOU!"

Acting Audition:
Didn't know lines.
Said wrong line
Forgot to say line.
"THANK YOU!"

::leaves about to cry::
::cries in seats in auditorium hoping no one notices::
::watches everyone else do wonderfully (only 2 other messed up, only one of them worse)::
::go home and smacks self, considers to stop breathing::
::decides if she stops breathing she'll die a virgin::