Boy Troubles, Again?

Just got home from the movies. I went with Ben Travers, Matt Travers, Nate Travers, and Mrs. Travers (every Traverse except Johnathon and Mr.).

I still totally have a crush on Matt, it's awful. I hate having a crush on him. Especially 'cus if I have a crush on someone, out of all the Travers atleast, it should be Ben. Ben's the one who's my age. I don't think any of my friends know though. I'm pretty good at keeping my crushes a secret.

Packed into Matt's car literally like sardines (he has an ['88?] Honda Civic, the kind that's a hatchback, not a car, and he bought it for $50), on the way home, his car started making some funny electrical noises, so we stopped and checked it out. He fixed it somehow. He got out, looked at it, got back in, stretched across the car trying to look at the wires, haha.After he fixed it and started driving, his mom mentioned she felt sick and he insisted that he drop her off first before he took me home. Gah, I don't want to date him though. I don't want a boyfriend right now, I don't want an older one, I don't really even want him to like me actually. I'd be quite creeped out/freaked out if he did. I don't know what I want, haha. -Aren't girls confusing?