Pin Your Wings

Man, so much has been going since my last post. I don't even know how to explain all my thoughts, ideas, and emotions. School has been a lil off lately because I'm not quite sure that even my teachers know what they want to teach us.
I'm sitting at home, alone today. Taryn is at Jeff's (she wanted "alone time" with him, which I understand), Sofia's bf Danny is in town, so they're hanging out, and Carolyn is hanging out with her Jeff. I know that there are plenty of girls whom I know that are not dating anyone, but it's hard to remember that (ex: Nicci, Senny, Lauren, Kristen, Rebekah,). -Especially when all Taryn and Sofia talk about is all the "sexy", or "cute", or "Godly" things that their boyfriends do. Btw, sofia and taryn did that for hours last night when we were going to bed 'cus we 3 slept at Taryn's. Apparently Danny likes to bite sofia's cheek and Jeff tucks Taryn into bed if she falls asleep while he's around. And they discussed how annoying parents are when it comes to dating alone and how it's embarassing when someone walks in on them sucking face.
I thought Charlie might like me. A part of me wants him to like because it feels good to know that you're desireable, but the other part is like "ewww". I mean, he's nice and all, but I have this shallow problem with fat. And if he doesn't like me, then we can just contine to hug during movies and not feel lonely because Taryn and Jeff are on the other couch all couple-like. If he did like me, then I would be a witch and be using him... Haha. Teenage drama is so pointless.

P.S.
My recital for Novie is next week, May 7. My piano recital is May 18.