Maine: Day 2

Woke up this morning to the sound of my cell phone ringing. It was Pauline Powers calling to ask how much I need to go on the trip to Africa. I told her $200 and she said that she was giving me $200 then. She said she had filled the check for me out wrong two times and finally gave up, taking it as a sign that God wanted her to write a different amount than the one she was currently trying to write ($100). So I’m going to Africa!

After that, I went out and looked out over the water, read Colossians chapter 2, and then found Angela’s Ashes on the bookshelf in my room, which I have read sporadically over the course of today. Hmmmm, we went to Bangor today and picked up my new camera and my dad’s new laptop, which we ordered online at BestBuy and picked up in the store. Yes, my family shops at BestBuy on vacation in Maine –we’re freaks. It was an hour and a half away… Then we took an hour detour to the town of Camden and looked in some shops. Now my mom’s friend from Portland (Maine) is with us, she came in the door about a minute ago. Her name’s is Heather and she has a daughter named Lisette.

Taryn’s making me sad. She’s mad at me. She thinks I’m leading Charlie on, not taking any responsibility for “my actions”, and that I’m being foolish by acting like his girlfriend. Charlie knows I’m not his girlfriend –I’ve told him that I don’t want to date twice already and he’s said he’s fine with that. I understand why his family calls me his girlfriend (I’m over there till 1am, he holds me, etc). But that’s no reason to be mad at me. Well, she says se’s not mad at me, she says she’s mad at the “situation.”

I want to date Charlie, but I’m worried that I won’t like him in a few weeks. I mean, I’m scared to commit. And what if I end up liking someone else? What happens if I find that I really like someone else as well as Charlie? Charlie’s such an awesome guy –he really respects my wishes when it comes to physical affection ( I asked him to not stroke my arm or give me a massage when other people are in the room and he didn’t). He’s older than I am though and he didn’t make that great of grades in HS. Enough to get into SCC, but I don’t know…
It’s scary.