No TN?

Oh, and fyi, Charlie's mom invited me to go to Tenessee with them (the becks). Charlie says she invited Taryn too. Even though I know taryn's mom won;t let her go, I'm not going either just because I don't want to give her more material to poison Robbie, Shope, Senny, Maxy, etc, against me. Though, I'm sure she'll find other things to talk of about me anyway.
I guess she's not really poisoning them anyway though, seeing as they never came to hang out with me. They only come to hang out with Taryn, just like everyone else (nick lamberth, candace, melissa). I mean, to a point they care about me, but none of them come to hang out at my house if Taryn doesn't. But if Taryn's there, they're all there.


P.S.
I have a feeling I'm not supposed to know this and that only my psychiatrist should know this (if i had a psychiatrist)... Oh well, I'll read my subconcious/submotives anyways: I desperately want approval from boys, which has led to me not wanting to hang out with girls so much and wanting to hang out guys one-on-one more often than not (ex: steve, robert, mason, sam, charlie).