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Ok, I really wanted to talk about this to Amy Sax, but she didn't call back tonight:


I'm being an overdramatic, confused, and lost teenage soul ;-P.
I feel like my Northland friends have betrayed me and will not hang out with me anymore.
I do not fit in with older kids either though because I just have not had enough life-experience (I shelter myself from drugs and drinking, so I don't even know about them, let alone do them). I know not all older kids care about are drugs and alchohol, but I don't know a lot of their movies, bands, music, politics, brands, foods, etcs.
I'm dreading another year of always tensed shoulders, a perpetually wrinkled brow, and never feeling quite comfortable, quite right.
I do not feel like I should be in Highschool, but I am afraid that I will not find it any better in college. I hope there is a point in my life where I will feel like there is a place where I am meant to be. Right now, Lyman is just a place to wait until something better comes along. Not that I doon't like Lyman -it's really fun and enjoyable- but I just feel that there's something else out there that I can't yet get my hands on.