SLT

Student Leadership Training last night was awesome. I only got to stay for 2 hours (it was a sleepover), but I still got a lot out of it. Rudy encouraged us to think about what was distracting us from God, pray about it and talk to God in general for 20 minutes about it individually, and then come back together and share, letting down our walls and trusting each other. I had to leave just as they began that, but I prayed on the way home and called Rudy on my way home and shared with him my insecurities. I've been meaning for about a year now to tell someone I really trust, but I always got scared just before I'd do it. Rudy wants me to tell Shelly, which I hope I'll have enough guts to do.
btw, it's nothing big, it's just that dumb boyfriend thing again: I get too much of my self-worth from boys, I'm jealous of people who are in relationships, and I resent pretty girls who get boys' attention. In general, I'm insecure and it keeps my heart sour and distracts me from God.