My *Silent* Prayer

Oh Lord, once again, can you lend your ear to my pathetic life?
I want a boyfriend, but I only want one because I want the physical affection.
I don't want a boyfriend for the security or to be in love with someone (that takes too much work right now).
I wish I had a guy-friend who didn't like me who I could hug when I wanted a hug.
Hugs are so different if they're girl-to-girl and if they're girl-to-boy.
But that's not cool of me to do.
It would make it just so much easier to fall into having pre-marital sex.
Having a boyfriend would make it so easy to justify making out and stuff.
Pretty much Lord, bf/gf relationships in highschool are stupid.
What are the chances of me marrying a highschool sweetheart?
Jesus, I want to fall madly in love with husband, but I also want to fall for You.
Father, I want you to be my first love.